Jasper
5-08-01, 03:21 PM
I wrote this a while ago, when I was in a phase of my life where I needed to expunge some lingering feelings, hope it isnt too dismal.
I remember:
I remember the first day I saw you
I remember the way your long hair caught my eye
I remember the smile you flashed when I said hello
I remember my heart skipping when I saw it
I remember all my friends saying you were out of my league
I remember ignoring them
I remember my palms sweating when I asked you out
I remember trying to act cool when you said yes
I remember the first kiss we shared and how it made me weak
I remember walking home that day, feeling a warmth inside
I remember not being able to sleep, thinking of you until the sun peeked through my window
I remember thinking I was not good enough for you
I remember you assuring me I was
I remember the day you told me you wanted to leave, that where we were wasnt where you wanted to be
I remember deciding to leave all I had, and join the navy to allow that to happen
I remember being told things weren't as they seemed
I remember thinking they couldnt be right
I remember you telling me again, how much I meant to you
I remember shopping for the ring
I remember feeling so nervous when I gave it to you
I remember the incredible joy I felt when you said yes
I remember the terrible sadness when you later gave it back
I remember you saying you needed more time
I remember sleepless nights, worrying about you
I remember when I didnt eat for 12 days, I was too blue to bother
I remember the relief when you said we could work things out
I remember going to your prom
I remember making love to you
I remember how right it felt to be with you once again
I remember going to war
I remember waiting for a letter
I remember it never coming
I remember crying a lot
I remember not hearing from you for 9 months
I remember when you called me and we talked for hours
I remember you telling me how much you missed me, how much you loved me, how much I meant to you
I remember the plans we made that night
I remember the next call, telling me you were getting married
I remember crying
and crying
I remember wondering why I wasn't good enough
I remember wondering why you called and made me think of you again
I remember the lonliness of being without you
I remember talking to friends, they all told me how sorry they were
I remember feeling like a fool
I remember how songs would make me cry
I remember my friends telling me things would be okay
I remember not believing them
I remember MY wedding day
I remember thinking of you
I remember crying that night, by myself, feeling lonely and ashamed of myself
I remember trying to find you when things were not working out
I remember thinking I would be able to win you back
I remember not trying for fear of feeling blue again
I remember the day it occurred to me that you were the reason I wasnt happy
I remember the day I realised how foolish I had been
I remember thinking it was so easy to forget
But I still feel sad when I remember
But I feel sad for you, not myself
Memories and good times are there now
Hurt is slowly fading
Happiness is returning
I miss you
But I no longer need you
------------------
Ron
While I am aware that, as the saying goes, Money can't buy me happiness"
I would still like to be known as "That meloncholy guy driving the red Lamborghini"
Email me if you want: realdealmbp@yahoo.com
I remember:
I remember the first day I saw you
I remember the way your long hair caught my eye
I remember the smile you flashed when I said hello
I remember my heart skipping when I saw it
I remember all my friends saying you were out of my league
I remember ignoring them
I remember my palms sweating when I asked you out
I remember trying to act cool when you said yes
I remember the first kiss we shared and how it made me weak
I remember walking home that day, feeling a warmth inside
I remember not being able to sleep, thinking of you until the sun peeked through my window
I remember thinking I was not good enough for you
I remember you assuring me I was
I remember the day you told me you wanted to leave, that where we were wasnt where you wanted to be
I remember deciding to leave all I had, and join the navy to allow that to happen
I remember being told things weren't as they seemed
I remember thinking they couldnt be right
I remember you telling me again, how much I meant to you
I remember shopping for the ring
I remember feeling so nervous when I gave it to you
I remember the incredible joy I felt when you said yes
I remember the terrible sadness when you later gave it back
I remember you saying you needed more time
I remember sleepless nights, worrying about you
I remember when I didnt eat for 12 days, I was too blue to bother
I remember the relief when you said we could work things out
I remember going to your prom
I remember making love to you
I remember how right it felt to be with you once again
I remember going to war
I remember waiting for a letter
I remember it never coming
I remember crying a lot
I remember not hearing from you for 9 months
I remember when you called me and we talked for hours
I remember you telling me how much you missed me, how much you loved me, how much I meant to you
I remember the plans we made that night
I remember the next call, telling me you were getting married
I remember crying
and crying
I remember wondering why I wasn't good enough
I remember wondering why you called and made me think of you again
I remember the lonliness of being without you
I remember talking to friends, they all told me how sorry they were
I remember feeling like a fool
I remember how songs would make me cry
I remember my friends telling me things would be okay
I remember not believing them
I remember MY wedding day
I remember thinking of you
I remember crying that night, by myself, feeling lonely and ashamed of myself
I remember trying to find you when things were not working out
I remember thinking I would be able to win you back
I remember not trying for fear of feeling blue again
I remember the day it occurred to me that you were the reason I wasnt happy
I remember the day I realised how foolish I had been
I remember thinking it was so easy to forget
But I still feel sad when I remember
But I feel sad for you, not myself
Memories and good times are there now
Hurt is slowly fading
Happiness is returning
I miss you
But I no longer need you
------------------
Ron
While I am aware that, as the saying goes, Money can't buy me happiness"
I would still like to be known as "That meloncholy guy driving the red Lamborghini"
Email me if you want: realdealmbp@yahoo.com