I need to vent, and I thought this forum was the best to say my problem, and it's major. Today, I got an petition to go to court, because of past rent issues. I have to either pay the money or get evicted, and if I don't show up for my court date I'm automatically evicted.
Right now, I'm going through some financial issues that are going over my head, and I'm very scared right now. I don't want to tell my family, because I know they'll be very upset with me and worried about me. It's my own damn fault, because my checking account's been overdrawn and I've been living day by day on stuff I get from work.
I'm going to talk to my godmother, who's a lawyer to ask if she can help me in anyway. I'm so ashamed with myself. I've never felt so stupid in my life.
I'm afraid if this comes out to my family they'll disown me and I won't have anyone left. Ever since my father passed away, I've been slowly going downhill. I'm very scared right now, because I really don't want to lose my family, and I'm afraid I will. I don't want them to hate me, I want them to help me.
I don't know what to do.

I really doubt your family would disown you over this. I've been where are you. Trust your family. Telk them everything and I bet someone will help you out. Good luck with this sweetie. :ghug:

Thanks, Jazzy, I'm going to talk to my godmother on Friday. She's not a blood relative, but I trust her, and being my lawyer she can help me in other ways too (I hope). But I just want her moral support right now. I'm just afraid to talk to my brother, who's helped me in the past with financial issues, because he's going to to be pissed at me, and I hate people being pissed at me, even though I deserve it.
I don't know if it's a mental issue I'm dealing with, but there's a chance I might move back to Wellsville for a little while and I'm going to see if I can get some out patient help. I'm not crazy, but I think that I'm suffering from depression and anxiety problems, and I'm not sure if I can deal with it alone anymore. I've had this problem all my life, but ever since my Dad's death it seems to have gotten a heck of a lot worse.

Molly, there's nothing wrong with getting the help you need. Good for you for recognizing that things have gotten out of control. I highly doubt your family will disown you. Keep your chin up, there will be better days ahead. Trust me, I know. :rose:

Oh you guys are so great. I wish my Mom were here though, but she's in Ireland right now.
I know my family won't disown me, I was upset and got emotional. I feel better though. If I do get evicted, I'd stay with my Godmother until I found a new place. She lives close by, and she works near where I work. Hopefully I won't be evicted though.

Im glad you have someone to turn to incase you do get evicted. Have you called any financial counselors? It might be a good idea. Dont trust them totally but maybe they would have some advice for getting you out of this.

Molly...this isn't a vent..you are scared and you needed to talk with someone. I don't think your family will disown you sweetie, talk with them and perhaps someone can help you with this. It's a very scary feeling to not have money, pressure from people wanting money from you, and not knowing which way to turn. I wish that I were in a position to actually loan you all that you needed.

Please keep us posted on this..I hope you know that we are all here for you. Hugz {{}}

Good Luck Molly. I hightly doubt your family will disown you. First step to getting better is admitting you need help. Good luck sweetie. We're here for you. :rose:

Molly, I don't think your family will disown you because you are having trouble with your rent payments. Many people struggle to pay rent, but it's all about survival!!!

Are you having trouble paying rent because of other bills, or the income you make?

Maybe you can find a temporary part time job to get yourself out of the hole.

You might want to look into doing something that I do to make sure I have enough money for rent. I set up an escrow account with my bank where I have a set amount of money from my paycheck to go into. That money is my rent payment, so at the end of each month, I have the money to pay my rent and don't have to worry about whether I can make the payment or not. I would talk to your bank and look into doing that, if they do. You can also just put that money into your regular savings if they don't and then just take it out before the rent is due.

Tomorrow, I'm going to my godmother's office and see if I can get a part time job there. I already work 8 hours a week, but I can work for at least 4 hours a day.
I'm doing better today. I talked to the manager of my building and she told me to talk to someone she knows about getting help. Sadly, she's leaving tomorrow (I just found that out). (I was being sarcastic, I usually hate the beotch. :p )