I just need to vent a little here. Just get this out of my system. My life has takenn a down turn recently. Feel like I'm losing ground very quickly. Not only have I lost my job, but my best friend has been diagnosed with cancer. Doingg my best to be there for her right now. Just taking so much more out of me. I have no motivation to even do anythng right now. Just want to hide away from the world. I realize that I can't actually do that, but it's hard not to. I'm not even sure where to start right now to get past all of this. Just feel lost. I know I'm probably rambling here, but my thoughts aren't very clear right now. I'm on medication already for depression. Can't imagine how bad off I'd be without it. I talked to my dr. about this yesterday. She decided not to change my meds for now. I just need to find a way to get through this.

You'll always have friends here Jazz, and all the support you need. I'm really sorry to hear of your current plight at the moment, and agree that your priority must be to be strong for your friend - as painful and emotionally tiring it may be for you.

Hopefully the 80's exchange can be a place for you to let off some of that emotion and escape whenever you may feel the need.

Keep your chin up through these difficult times.

{{HUGZ}} I can't say that "I know how you feel" but please remember that we are here for you as much as we are able to...vent,post, yell, get some it out of your system as much as you need to...and then come back and do it all over again.

I realize that you are hurting inside and trying to be strong and supportive at the same time for your friend. Hard to balance isn't it? Talk. Start a journal with your friend and you each write down your hopes, fears, thoughts. ANYTHING! I think it's great that you are willing to be there for her/him. Some people will shy away, afraid of showing that they are uncomfortable. They arn't going to catch it for God's sake!

I wish you the best of luck with all you are dealing with at this time.

Ah sorry to hear things are so bad Jazz. I'm sure things will get better really soon. :)

I realize that you are hurting inside and trying to be strong and supportive at the same time for your friend. Hard to balance isn't it? Talk. Start a journal with your friend and you each write down your hopes, fears, thoughts. ANYTHING! I think it's great that you are willing to be there for her/him. Some people will shy away, afraid of showing that they are uncomfortable. They arn't going to catch it for God's sake

I agree with her
When I am down it helps to write things down. Write how you feel and what you want out of life.
We are here for you if you need to just rant! That is what friends are for. Use this place as your journal.. it might help. Tell us how you feel everyday and we can see your progress.

If anything else.. know that you are not alone in this world. Reach out to friends they are always willen to help you.
I know a good hug with someone always helps me.
I really hope you will feel better.

I can't advice you, Jazz, because I've never felt so badly... just don't keep it inside of you, take it out of you. Talk about it... the only thing I can do it's a try to support you, the same way you have to support your friend. Just call me if you need to talk. The time cures everything, just don't allow it to obsess you. Remember how good you are, and how good we think you are. And again, talk with your friends about it... you'll feel better.

Thanks everyone for the advice. I'm slowly doing better. Some days are good and some not. I know that it takes time to get out of this feeling.

hey Jazz
sorry to hear about your plight. (I didn't realise I wasn't the only one here with problems. I thought everyone seemed pretty much happy and just had the occasional day-to-day stuff happening.lol)
I'm learning how to change things from the inside out. This post would be for anyone, I suppose, but thoughts are energy. Actual energy in motion. (the scientists know. :)
and remember that 'like attracts like energy'. I'm learning it through practice that what we dwell on, we're actually attracting more for our future. It's hard in the face of every day evidence. But the trick really is positive thinking. Specific, to the details, about what you would like out of life. Then change the thoughts (that we all have) that say why we can't have or don't deserve what we want. Since they are making reality, too. :)
it's a step by step thing, but we really have more power than we realise. it just takes time.
I hope you feel better, regardless.
and the xchange is good for venting and playing. you dont have to bear the world's weight on your shoulders.
:)

Jazzy-love, if ya need an understandin ear about that depression - Xandra's the one to talk to. She's been there -an- taken the meds. For myself, all I can say is as low as things get, there's a point where they gotta start comin back up. We're all here for ya, know I am at least, even if ya just need an ear ta bend.

Thanks Rebel. Means a lot to me right now. Had a minor break down last night. Realized I was fooling myself about how I was coping with everything. Trying to stay upbeat and help out a friend. Forgetting to take care of myself. Just trying to take it easy today and find some things to take my mind off of everything for a while. Need to get through family visit this weekend. ;) Then I can start finding ways to really deal with everything.

Vilji.... You have a good point. Sometimes hard to think positively, but I'm working on it. :)

Sorry to hear about the turn of events in your life, I really hope they get better for you soon. Lucky for us we get a new shot at life everyday and have the choice to make it a great one. Keep your chin up and I will say a prayer for you and your friend.:)

We all feel the need to hide from the world once in a while and the best way to do that is to give yourself even 10 minutes each day just for yourself. It can be at any time during the day where you 'hide' from the world. Sitting in the washroom, lying in bed before sleep, etc.

It's a lot cheaper than paying the big bucks for NASA to launch you in orbit! :bouncy:

Felt a need to bring this thread back up.


Recently had to go see my dr. about this again. Changed my meds to see if it would help any. I have having minor panic attacks the past few days. Didn't even realize that's what they were till I was reading the paperwork that came with my meds. Knew the symptoms right away. Just feel so lost and confused right now.

Panic attacks really suck Jazzy. I had them after an injury and didn't realize that's what they were either. I really hope you find something that helps. I know xanax helps me tons when I have a panic attack on an airplane. I take it anytime I get on one now. It really is such a helpless and lonely feeling. It's hard to describe to someone. Keep us updated Jazzy. ;)

I am sorry to hear that you are going through that :( But know we are all here for you. So vent away.

Thanks. Nice to know I can always come here and let things out. :)

hey Jazzy.... {{hugs}} I hope you're feeling better. Panic attacks are very scary, even when you do know what they are. When I was sick, they were the one thing that really convinced me it was time to get help. My heart was racing so much, I felt like I was going to die, and I was terrified to do anything, even move around the house.

Take care of yourself & tell your doctor about your panic attacks, maybe he/she can adjust your meds. {{hugs}}

Originally posted by Jazzmyn
Felt a need to bring this thread back up. Recently had to go see my dr. about this again. Changed my meds to see if it would help any. I have having minor panic attacks the past few days. Didn't even realize that's what they were till I was reading the paperwork that came with my meds. Knew the symptoms right away. Just feel so lost and confused right now.

Xandra just changed her meds too, only yesterday. The new ones have her bouncin round a bit, but from past experience, she'll mellow out once her system gets used to em. Her panic attacks have been bloody awful, which is part o'the reason she ain't been postin. But she's on the way ta recoverin.

Try not ta worry too much, Jazzy-love. Hopefully yer new meds'll help some. An remember, ya always got friends here who are willin ta listen an be there for ya. I'm one.

Thanks Mary and Rebel. :)

Actually doing better this week. The panic attacks have calmed down considerably for now. Feeling more upbeat about things right now. Now I just need to get used to them so the meds won't keep me up most of the night. lol Been through this before. It doesn't last too long.

:ghug: Sis, I haven't seen this thread... but like Rebel said, you got friends here and you have a cyber sis in me :D If anything happens... you can always talk to me :*:*